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iridescentscarab @Fri 23 Feb 2018


LOSS. ♡♡♡ I’d like to say that my heart is fully healed. I’d like to say that my heart invested less than it did in a situation that was toxic for me. But that’s not how it works. ♡♡♡ With matters of the heart it’s tough. Memories haunt you and you mourn the loss of a person that was in your life that isn’t anymore. ♡♡♡ For me it’s been a year but I’m still pretty wrecked and torn apart. Most people would tell me to just get over it by now. ♡♡♡ Again, no one gets to tell you how fast to heal. No one gets to dictate how much of your heart you invest in someone else. ♡♡♡ I need more time to heal my heart and I’m not ashamed. It took a tumble and it’s strong as hell from all the pain and turmoil it’s been put through. 💚💪🏻💚

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iridescentscarab @Thu 22 Feb 2018


Edited vs Un-edited. ♡♡♡ The first photo was a filter from VSCO Cam on it. It has some increased saturation and blue tint to it. It also has the chromatic effect layered over that from FaceTune and I used the details tool to go over my eyes a little bit. ♡♡♡ The second photo is taken in front of a large window with just natural sunlight. No filter. But I am wearing a good amount of make-up. ♡♡♡ It’s so easy to make yourself look better and not human like. There’s apps out there for nearly everything. I edit my photos because I am in love with bright and intense colors and I want me feed to look cohesive. It’s also a representation of how I wish the world looked like and it’s my fantastical escape from reality. ♡♡♡ Just a reminder that you don’t need filters and editing to be beautiful. You don’t have to compete with perfection. How you are is stunning as is. ♡♡♡ If you use filters and edit your photos, you’re worthy. If you don’t you’re worthy as well. There’s no right or wrong. I just personally want to show everyone what went into the edits of my photo and I want people who visit my feed to know that I don’t naturally look like that so they don’t compare themselves to me. 💙💪🏻💜✨

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iridescentscarab @Mon 19 Feb 2018


OMG Pisces season, can you not? I am all of the feels already!!! ♡♡♡ I had a pretty emotional night where I felt really depressed over something from my past. ♡♡♡ Everyone always says to just let it go but why is it so hard? Even when you have the intention to? ♡♡♡ Healing isn’t linear. You may feel fine for days or months and then something can trigger you that makes you feel like you hit rock bottom. ♡♡♡ Just sending out a reminder tonight that no one has the right to tell you how fast you should be healing. No one has to right to say your feelings aren’t justified or that they’re invalid. Emotions are power. 💗💪🏻✨// {photo via: @themightysite}

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iridescentscarab @Sun 18 Feb 2018


Hey love bugs! Happy Sunday! ♡♡♡ Just wanted to express my gratitude over how many of your reached out or commented with super kind words and support. I am so touched and proud of the loving community on here. I love you guys. ♡♡♡ I’m feeling very excited and not just because I’m caffeinated and got more than enough sleep last night. 😏👍🏻✨ ♡♡♡ I’m working so hard to get my YouTube channel up for y’all. Exciting things coming soon. Can’t wait to connect with you guys through that medium. ♡♡♡ Hope everyone has a lovely day and long weekend. 💗💚💗 ♡♡♡ ***This photo is taken from one of my walks through Marina Del Rey. Photo is edited with the Geló App, Image Blender App, Mextures App and VSCO Cam App.

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iridescentscarab @Sat 17 Feb 2018


This photo is a big deal for me. ♡♡♡ I’ve been struggling so much with loving my appearance. I’m struggling to lose the 20 pounds that I’ve gained. I’ve felt so ashamed that I can’t fit into my clothes and it’s made me feel ugly. ♡♡♡ I felt depressed and stopped putting effort into styling my hair and looking stylish with my outfits. ♡♡♡ Today, I was able to have fun again and express myself. To dress up and smile and play. I was able to accept my love and love myself for taking the steps to living a healthier life. ♡♡♡ Maybe I’m not where I’m at right now but I am so happy that I’m on the path to work hard and get results. Now just to embrace being patient. ☺️💪🏻💜✨ ♡♡♡ ***This selfie is edited. A filter added in VSCO Cam, eyes are detailed and chromatic filter is used from Facetune. Just wanted to let you know that I DIDN’T in fact wake up like this. 😉👍🏻

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iridescentscarab @Fri 16 Feb 2018


I am proud of myself. ♡♡♡ I don’t say that enough. ♡♡♡ This week I’ve been more self-sufficient and self-reliant. I’ve been making healthy lifestyle changes. I’ve been dedicated to living an even more disciplined life. ♡♡♡ I am trying my hardest and that certainly counts for something even if I might not see immediate results. ♡♡♡ Progress, patience and perseverance. 🌴💗💙💚

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iridescentscarab @Mon 12 Feb 2018


Hi bbs! No new blog post today because I’m saving something special for Wednesday this week! Today it’s just me and some rockin hair by @_jenna_locke. ♡♡♡ Also rockin my signature rash. I’m a hypersensitive person so I get so overstimulated with not only emotion but also chemicals, products, and scents and such. ♡♡♡ I’m not on Instagram or social media to try to pretend that I’m perfect or airbrushed, though if I’m being honest, at one point in time I did. ♡♡♡ Now I’m on here to just share who I am unapologetically. It’s ok if your skin isn’t perfect. It’s ok if you have a skin condition like me. You can still be beautiful and a great person. You can also still rock some amazing hair too! 😏💜💇‍♀️❤️✨

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iridescentscarab @Mon 12 Feb 2018


Before your head into this next week, I’d like you to save this image and think about it for a second. ♡♡♡ Try to alleviate the weight on your shoulders and the weight on your heavy heart. What can you let go? What are you holding onto that doesn’t deserve you? ♡♡♡ For me it’s inner demons, old habits and ghosts of the past. ♡♡♡ We deserve inner peace. Even if it doesn’t feel like it, letting sh*t go is something we have to help us gain control when we feel like we’re spinning out of it. ♡♡♡ I hope the week ahead brings strength, insight, self-love and an incredibly amount of happiness! 💜💗💜

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iridescentscarab @Sat 10 Feb 2018


I have been feeling depressed and down. A little lost, unsure and uninspired. ♡♡♡ When we feel unpleasant emotions that are painful sometimes our first instinct is to run from it. To not feel it anymore. To make it go away. I think we forget that our pain has incredible value. It’s intel. It shows us where we need to make changes it our lives to become happier. It helps us realize we have control and power to do so. ♡♡♡ So next time you are feeling pain, soak it up and feel it. There is always something to be learned from it and it will always be great insight to lead you to something better. 💚✨💪🏻🌹

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iridescentscarab @Thu 08 Feb 2018


OMG you guys I don’t know what I would do without my trusty pill separator. ♡♡♡ It was an adjustment going back on daily medication. It was also a responsibility. I had to make sure to be there for myself and not mess it up. ♡♡♡ I did mess up though. Lots of times! Especially during the first week of being back on medication. ♡♡♡ Having a pill separator saved my life. Now I know when I took my medication or not. I’d have days where I’d be feeling so funny and realize it was because I hadn’t taken my meds! ♡♡♡ If you’re like me and a little all over the place with super good intentions, I highly recommend this daily pill separator. It’s a tiny bit important thing that helps me keep my life together! 💜💊👍🏻

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iridescentscarab @Thu 08 Feb 2018


There are a lot of misconceptions about depression. One of them is that you have to be crying in order to be depressed. ♡♡♡ Often times, some of the darkest depression I’ve felt has been when I’m not crying. I’ve also experienced painful episodes where I haven’t been able to stop crying. Both are different ways of experiencing depression and both are valid. ♡♡♡ For me depression feels like my soul is cloudy, a dark cloud. Because I’ve been sick my meditation and exercise routine has been very off and I’ve been spiraling to dark places because of it. Those are two huge things that help me keep my mental health issues at bay. ♡♡♡ Right now, instead of shaming myself for not being successful enough or thin enough, I’m just going to breathe and look up at the stars and know that this darkness is temporary. ♡♡♡ Sending love and strength to those who are also in a similar and funky place mentally tonight. ❤️🧡💙💚💜💗💪🏻✨

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iridescentscarab @Wed 07 Feb 2018


I did not plan on getting sick this week. I had sh*t I wanted to do. ♡♡♡ Sometimes life has other plans. Truth be told I needed rest and the Universe decided to give it to me instead of listening to my ego. ♡♡♡ I am not Superwoman. Sometimes all I have to give is my best. And I can guarantee that no matter how I’m feeling or what I’m doing in life...I will ALWAYS give my best. That is more than enough. 👍🏻👍🏻

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iridescentscarab @Mon 05 Feb 2018


02.05.2018 ♡♡♡ “Self-love is so precious and it’s an absolute necessity in order to be able to love others to the fullest. We all deserve love in our lives and knowing that it begins with ourselves helps us take control. It helps us to be able to let love in.” ♡♡♡ New post on the blog today talking about what I love about my body! I’ve been feeling so much shame for gaining so much weight that I decided to take it upon myself to write every single thing that I love about how my body looks. ♡♡♡ Full post, outfit details and my super personal #bodypositivity #selflove list are up now on 🍫🍷www.iridescentscarab.com🍷🍫

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